TEENAGE RAMPAGING CONTINUES...

I really have had more than I can stand and it's not being overly dramatic to say that my son is slowly breaking my heart.

This child, the one I have nurtured, loved, fed, and worried over for eighteen years is on a slippery slope and I just don't know what to do to stop his fall.

On Thursday he told me that he was "worried about his legs." I really could not work out what he was saying to me - did his legs hurt, I asked. No, he said, I mean that I owe somebody for some drugs and I haven't got the money.

Devastated is not the word but, terrified that he would get seriously hurt and having got him to swear that he would no longer be involved in this world, we paid the £135.

Later that day, my boy arrived home in his car completely legless. The one thing he has always been sensible about is drinking and driving - he has never driven his car whilst drunk, until now.

If that is not enough, he had beated 7 shades of shit out of some poor boy who tried it on with his girlfriend. Then later that night, he was arrested for driving under the influence.

So, in the course of one day, I have paid my son's illicit drug bill, listened to him boast about beating somebody up, and discovered that he is drink driving.

That is why to say that he is breaking my heart is no exaggeration.

My husband has thrown him out of the house, but I worry about him. I saw him today and begged him to get help. Sadly, he can't see that there is any problem.

I don't want to think about the future.

BLOGS AND BLOGGERS

I set this block up as a bit of an experiment really - it seemed that the world and his uncle was in on some sort of secret, and I wanted a piece of the action.

What have I learned over the past couple of weeks - well a lot and nothing, all at the same time!

I've learned that blogging isn't just about writing but if you can write, blogging is easier. As far as I can make out, blogging is about understanding the digital revolution - how to make yourself attractive to the spiders that crawl the world wide web. It's a huge learning curve.

I have chosen to learn in public and, from now on, this particular blog will be my 'practice piece.' Watch and learn as I make my mistakes in public!